Favorite Moments From 2008 AMA's

Last night the wonderful Annie Lennox performed Why on the American Music Awards. Definitely not a new song but still very relevant, the song spoke to me in a strong way. Unfortunately I could not find that exact performance so instead I will share her singing the song at another event.



Another notable performance from the awards was a duet of Sarah McLachlan & Pink singing Sarah's song Angel. Their beautiful strong voices compliment each other perfectly, it is always nice to see strong artists work together.

November 22, 2008

Yesterday marked Dawson being 4 weeks old, as well as his first real smile. While the transition of having another child in the house has been relatively bump free it has not been without bumps. Sadly I had to make the very adult decision to send our dog Diego to live elsewhere. Not to far really just gone to live with my husband. I love Diego but between both kids he was not getting the time or attention he deserved. Is he gone for good? At this point I am not to sure. All I know is I have made the best decision for him.

As I spend more time separated I have found a strange thing happening. My motivation and energy has returned. My house is cleaner than it has been in over a year. Far from immaculate but at least to the point I would not feel ashamed to have guests, and at least that's a start. My next step will be cleaning of the psyche so to speak, as I intend to get into some counselling for myself. I realize as much support as I have been fortunate enough to have no one can really help me unless I want to help myself, counselling will be the start of that. I am such a proud person it has been hard to accept anyones help, still trying to work towards the actual acceptance. More often than not my days are good and I am looking forward to those lonely sad days disappearing all together, baby steps I guess... Well my thoughts are jumbled but this is what's been on my mind lately.

Daily Prayer Of Acceptance

Found this on a facebook friend's profile and thought it was worth sharing.

I accept myself completely.
I accept my strengths and my weakenesses, my gifts and my shortcomings.
I accept myself completely as a human being.
I accept that I am here to grow, and I accept that I am learning and growing.
I accept my personality I've developed, and I accept my power to heal and change.

I accept myself without condition or reservation.
I accept that the core of my being is goodness and that my essence is love, and
I accept that I sometimes forget that.

I accept myself completely, and in this acceptance
I find an ever-deepening inner strength.
From this place of strength,
I accept my life fully and I am open to the lessons it offers me each day.

I accept that within my mind are both fear and love, and
I accept my power to choose which I will experience as real.
I recognize that I experience only the results of my own choices.
I accept the time that I choose fear as part of my learning and healing process, and
I accept that I have the potential and power in any moment to choose love instead.

I accept mistakes as a part of growth.
I am willing to forgive myself and give myself another chance.
I accept that my life is the expression of my thought, and I commit myself to aligning my thoughts more and more each day with the thought of love.
I accept that I am an expression if this love.
I am love's hands, voice and heart on Earth.

I accept my own life as a blessing and a gift.
My heart is open to receive, and I am deeply grateful.
May I always share the gifts that I receive fully, freely, and joyfully.
I accept all that I was, all that I am, and all that I choose to become.

Adjusting To Life With Two

Adjusting to life with two children has been alot easier than I expected. Actually overall everything about Dawson arriving has been easier. When Brandon was born I was in pain from the birth. Toss in baby blues and frustration and upset over our breastfeeding issues and it made for me being an absolute mess. Than came the colic... I was so glad when that passed. My experience with Dawson has been so different. With no ripping or bruising my recovery after the birth was almost instaneous, except for a few minor aches and pains I feel great. Breastfeeding Dawson has been a dream, it's been easy. This little guy is definitely a boob man. Yesterday we had him weighed and he is now at 8lbs 3oz, that is about 10oz above his birth weight! I am so pleased to know he is getting everything he needs right from me. Brandon has been a great big brother and has adjusted nicely to his new role. I feel very fortunate and blessed to have such wonderful little boys. Now if I could just figure out the time to get everything done I want to do in a day I will be set.

Dawson 12 days old

Crazy Eights - Lifted From Tess

8 TV Shows I love to watch:

1. True Blood
2. Supernatural
3. Ghost Whisperer
4. The Hills
5. How I Met Your Mother
6. Heroes
7. Criminal Minds
8. CSI: Las Vegas

Favorite Restaurants:

1. The Cheesecake Cafe
2. Sam's Cafe
3. Eastside Mario's
4. Tim Hortons
5. Wendy's
6. Montana's
7. Tasty Tom's
8. Bulgogi House

Things That Happened Yesterday:

1. I did dishes.
2. I swept the floors.
3. I whined about still being pregnant.
4. Made supper.

Blah I give up I cannot even think of eight... life is pretty quiet around here LOL.

8 Things I'm Looking Forward To:

1. The birth of this baby.
2. Grocery shopping
3. The birth of this baby.
4. Next weeks episode of True Blood.
5. The birth of this baby (notice a pattern?)
6. Getting back into shape after this baby is born.
7. Halloween.
8. The birth of this baby.

8 Things On My WishList:

1. Bee Movie (ok this is really for Brandon)
2. SLR Camera
3. A bright future
4. Hot wings
5. Ice cream
6. Getting the dog fully trained.
7. A night out with friends
8. A library card

Friends I'm Tagging:
Whomever would like to do this.

Sweet Mommy Moments

Just had to share a moment that reminds me why I love being a Mom. Brandon and I were snuggling watching Bee Movie today. When suddenly he turns to me gives me a big hug and says "I love you Mommy". So I hugged him and told him I loved him to. A few minutes later he touches my hair and says "beautiful hair". Than touches my face and says "beautiful face". Than gestures to my eyes and says "beautiful eyes". He does the same with my nose and lips, than goes back to my hair. I am so lucky to have such a sweet little charmer. There is no better compliment than one out of the mouth of an innocent child.

My Thanksgiving

Yesterday I enjoyed a wonderful thanksgiving with friends. Sometimes we forget how blessed we are to have certain people in our lives, I know I sure did. It was so nice to be included in someones thanksgiving festivities. These friends of mine are truly gems. In addition to family there were a few other folks who like me had nowhere to be for thanksgiving so they opened their home to us, and in essence is that not the bare bones of what thanksgiving really started out as? As much as I craved family connections in the past I have come to terms with the fact those people will never give me what I need, and I accept that. Instead I will celebrate the blessing of other connections in my life, connections I am so grateful for.

Later on in the evening we settled in with some yummy Epicure cheese dip and pita chips and watched "The Happening". One word of advice save your money and leave this one at the video store. A star studded cast does not always make a great movie. Between a poorly written script and some less than stellar acting this movie was a real stinker. But I enjoyed spending the time with my friends nonetheless. Now I wait for Brandon to come home.